night thoughts at it’s peak. Going to listen to some covers so that it could keep my mind off of things. Can’t afford thinking like this after I had such a great day anyways. Blah…

Please notice me..

I’m sad, angry, annoyed, restless, and hurt. I can’t seem to get away from whats hurting me. Why? Because it follows me even if I do try to scare it away. It lingers over my shoulder screaming at me and it scares me to death, because I dont have the ability nor strength to push it back. I wish I could just delete every memory of what I had that dropped and pulverized me. I know it’s wrong to say, because it’s what makes us sane and human. It teaches us through pain, but having that pain everyday is so much to take. I feel like I’m stuck in the corner being bullied to death. I just want for once that my happiness would last longer than a few hours. I’m being selfish and I know it, but knowing that it’s there staring at me from side to side terrifies me.

-kaname

from afar though.. it’s a good start. I’ll let time heal, and teach me how to love once again.